I'm becoming so discouraged.
I'm constantly bouncing from 125, to 128, to 123.
..... god. I just want to get to 113.
I want to be at least to 119 by Wednesday...
should I just fast? It's so hard for me.
HELP, please! :(

 I'm confused.
I feel like everywhere I go I'm looking for a potential boyfriend.
Every single guy I talk to I evaluate to see if maybe I could try to spark something..
but I can't find anyone high enough to my standards..
I'm so picky.
.. and the thing I hate the most is, it's like I'm so pathetic, I can't even be happy just being independent.

i hate myself.
i'm gluing a water bottle to my hands for the next 3 days,

Why is it so hard to control yourself? God, I hate days like these.